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Thoughts of suicide..i am depressed!

NEW SITE/NEW NAME

After taking a good long look at what has been going on ' or not' as it happens, at Nicals. DHP is having a change of name. In the new year we will be making a new website plus new myspace..We are taking a break from promoting gigs..(putting any on). But we are still going to be promoting bands for FREE, on our site(s).
We may well be doing the odd gig here and there but not using bands from outside cornwall @ Nicals, due to crap crowds and shite payment terms.
This will still be our blogs site, as i will be keep the name of Deadhead, the new name is going to that of the record label...'Deadtown Music'. there is s site under construction @ Present which can be found at http://www.freewebs.com/deadtown also we have a new myspace which you can find by going to http://www.myspace.com/deadtownmusic

Our main plan for the future of gigs is to hold them at bigger venues in Cornwall where the band will at least get some people to come and see them, we are looking into finding a better venue in Bodmin, but that is a task that has many downsides...maybe i should move..now there's an idea, but where to...well if the government have their way i'll be sent back Germany, as that is where i was born.....

BRAND NEW JOB

Well there you go people, that's how quickly someone's life can change. When i was doing the gigs @ Nicals, people always came forward with offers of help. Now i need that help no-one is coming forward. But after getting a few comments about said venue/pub i'm now know why. The PA system is bust and crowds are not showing up anymore. even bands are starting to stay away.

I was asking for help as i have gigs booked up until the end of the year, but only half of them are fully booked (support bands included), which takes me up to Sept 1st. after that it all goes tits up. The reason why i needed the help is due to the fact that i have a new job which starts on my first gig night...and i will be working nighjts from now on, so i can no longer do the gigs..(work the door..look after the bands etc). And seeing as no-one has offered any help the only thing i can do is to cancel the rest of the gigs. A sad state of affairs i know, but that's life and life's a bitch.

Is It Really Worth It?

Today i have been sat around thinking to myself, is it really worth going through all the shit that i take when i put gigs on. Bands letting me down, other bands demanding more & more money (which i don't blame them for). But when it all comes down to it, it's the place where the bands are playing. it's far too small to host big bands...yes i could book bigger bands to play @ Nicals, i have done in the past, but no-one wants to come in and pay anymore than £3.00, which again i don't blame them for, because the place is too small. You can charge what you like on the door, but if the people don't wanna show up and support the bands, then the bands ain't gonna get payed. Nicals really need to think things through, if they want the pub to be a good place for bands to come and play then maybe they should take a leaf from other pubs/venues and pay the bands that come in and play..i mean proper money...some bands are asking for £300 for the night, others will play for less than a hundred, but if you don't get the crowds in anymore what's the use in carrying on. I will carry on with this promotion lark for a short while, but if as i fear the crowds and bands are staying away then i'm going to call it day @ Nicals, it's just NOT worth the stress and hassle anymore.

I mean you charge £3.00 on the door and say you manage to 80 people in that's just £240, of course if you get the max in 100 people = £300..but that is never going to happen now.

SADDLE SORE

Today i went on a bike ride along the camel trail, which is a trail for walkers/bikes/horses (in Cornwall/UK) so they don't have to deal with so much traffic, like going on the main roads. Anyway the trek i went on today was 12 miles long, it was a bloody hot day today and on the way back home my knee (which i have been having trouble with) gave out, so i had to push the bike for the last mile or so. But the reason why i have a sore bum, is due to the fact that this is the first time that i have been on a bike for over 15 years. I feel ok at present apart from the sore arse, but i reckon in the morning my legs will feel the pain.
Still, i am going to keep up with the riding as i like to travel and i need to get fit.

BANDS = NO SHOW

Bands that don't show up for gigs are the worst type of bands that ever struck a chord! Why bother wasting everyones times saying you are going to play a gig, only not to show up. Even worse, why bother sending posters for the venue to advertise the fact, and still not show up.
It's bands like that that make me wanna find them and disband them for good. There is going to be some changes around her in DHP camp about bands gigging and not showing up...I mean you spend your time making up posters/flyers to advertise, or post off to mags to advertise, [which has got to be done early to catch the print deadline]...Then the band don't show. Even if the posters/flyers are cheap black & white ones, they still cost money, they still use ink from the printer in the first place. Looks like we may have to start putting out 'no-show' fees. To cover the costs for those bands that don't show without good reason. (like death, or dying through real illness). So let this be a warning to all you bands out there, that make a habit of this, because DHP will not stand for any 'tardyness'. If you let us down just once with good reason, we will not book you ever again. Why should if you can't be trusted to let people know what's going on...i mean there is a thing called the 'telephone' and most venues that i know of, have one. Just recently a couple of bands that were booked to play at Nicals in Bodmin didn't up... i know one of them and they booked the whole show for themself...so there was no back up band to fill the void...It's just not good enough boys. Lesson over...learn from it.

BACK TO WORK...'incap-benefit' people

The government are now trying to send more unfit people back to work, by changing the way it hands out 'incapacity benefit' and the new back to work tests...which failed with me. They stopped my money a day beofre i was to get payed, which i only found out the day before i was to get payed, so no money went into the bank, which meant i had no food, electric and could not pay any bills that needed paying off. infact i was left just over a month without any money what so ever, i couldn't even get a crisis loan. "great system at work again", With no money going into the bank, i had to use what was lft of my £100 overdraft..which of course soon went, and then i was in debt with the bank.."i still am", due to the charges and other debts, from bills i could not pay for over a month. But this never seemed to worry anyone, the fact that i was starving with no electric...'you could always ask your parents'...yes i could, but they are retired and are pensioners. So good luck to anyone who gets booted off of benefits the way i did, i'm still fighting to survive even now...when i got back pay that didn't even cover the bank debts let alone all the other debts i had incurred. This country doesn't give a shit about it's own citizens.